dannyhiga:

I think they should be a couple. 

I think Valentine’s day was made for those who need second chances. It is for people who are too busy everyday putting meals on the table, getting the paper work done, and paying the bills. It is for people who are too busy to sit down at the dining room table to eat dinner with their family. It is for people who work hard not for themselves but for their children and husband/wife. It’s for that little boy who asks his mother to pick out the roses in her garden so he can give it to the girl he has a crush on. Sometimes it’s for people to do that daring thing they have always wanted to do. Which is to ask someoen out. Why valentine’s day? I don’t know. I guess it just feels more satisfying to make someone feel less lonely on a day where love is showered with pink and red at every corner.

I feel….selfish. I feel guilty. Because the very person that loves and cares for me the most is disappointed in me. She expects a lot more from me and she knows I’m capable of meeting her expectations. I just ignore it most of the time like I always do and wait until the last minute. I cannot procrastinate in doing my best to make my loved ones proud. I cannot procrastinate my love for them. But I am. I wait til they say something about my bad grades to improve them. I wait for them to get mad at me for me to feel guilty for whatever I did. I have to stop doing this because there is going to be a day when it is too late to apologize. I cannot always have it easy. I cannot always have fun. As much as I really want to have fun all the time, I need to put first things first. And that is my education. I lack self motivation, that’s what is keeping me from reaching my full potential. I cannot stress that enough.

After all the times I missed your calls and came home late you only blow out on me now? Seriously? I just want to hang out with my friends, once again. It’s no different than the other times, well maybe because its ditch day. But still I spend time with family too. My friends pay gas and I even fill up the gas tank when I have to. Ugh. I really want to go on Friday. I guess I need to make a deal with my mom and come home before 9 pm.

Fuck this freaking research paper. LOL. Friiiiiiiick. I knew I shouldn’t have procrastinated.

I did not make that last post! LMAO!! It was my friend who doesn’t have a tumblr :)

When I’m down, I like to cut myself

another slice of cheese cake.

@ALLYBONASTYCHICHIGONSAGGY

I’m not too sure if this is a reoccurring dream or deja vu from daydreaming the previous time I had the same vision. This is the second time I’ve seen something like it. I hate this dream. It brings out my jealousy about a situation I should not be jealous about. Fuck. I don’t know what this is supposed to mean. I don’t know if I felt jealous in my dream, but I know for sure I felt jealous when I woke up. Ugh. I need to get rid of this feeling.

Beach
To see the beach in your dream symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.

To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.

To dream that you are looking toward the beach suggests that you are returning to what is familiar to you. Alternatively, you may be adapting or accepting to the changes and circumstances in your life.

To dream that you are relaxing on a beach signifies that the coming weeks will be calm and tranquil for you. Your stress will be alleviated and you will find peace of mind. However, to dream that you are working on the beach signifies a business project that will consume most of your time.

Eating
To dream that you are eating with others signifies harmony, intimacy, merriness, prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and/or joyous spirits.

Hands
To dream that you are washing your hands represent a worrisome issue that you need to work through. Alternatively, it suggests that you are in denial or no longer taking responsibility of some matter. You are letting go and getting things out of your system.

Waves
To hear waves crashing in your dream indicates tenderness and relaxation. It also brings about feelings of sensuality, sexuality and tranquility.

I had a dream where I was at the beach and there were like separate lagoons. One for the public, one for surf competitions and one for idk the public again I guess. Then I went to this house to wash my hands because I was going to eat rice with fried chicken. Then all of a sudden people start coming and eating with me. LOL. Oh and the part where I was in class or something. I was shaking someones head because I had a feeling they were going crazy loloolol.

dannyhiga:

I don’t need a relationship, I need a friendship. A friendship that’ll change my life. Feelings are messy and all I’d really want is a friend who will never leave. Someone who I can just be myself around, not worrying whether or not my actions will be judged upon and is a deciding factor if they’d like me back or not. A friendship that’s so close and tight that people will mistaken us as a couple. Sometimes we seek company. Sometimes we seek affection. If there’s anyone who deserves it all, it would be a best friend. Someone who was there and will be there through thick and thin.